ABSTRACT
PURPOSE: The COVID-19 pandemic has disrupted thousands of individuals' experience of caregiving and grief. This qualitative study aimed to gain in-dept understanding of family caregivers' lived experiences of caregiving and bereavement in the context of the COVID-19 pandemic in Quebec, Canada. The study also aimed at providing new insight about caregiving and bereavement by analysing the metaphors family caregivers use to report their experiences. METHODS: The design of this study was guided by an interpretative phenomenological approach. In-depth interviews were conducted with twenty bereaved family caregivers who had lost a loved one during the first waves of the pandemic. RESULTS: Results indicate that bereaved family caregivers lived and understood their experience in terms of metaphoric cut-offs, obstructions and shockwaves. These three metaphors represented the grief process and the bereaved's quest for social connection, narrative coherence and recognition. CONCLUSION: By identifying the meaning of the bereaved's metaphors and the quest they reveal, our study underlines the singularity of pandemic grief and points to the value and meaning of caregiving with regard to the grieving process.